change / time

You can not change the world,the only person you can change is yourself.By changing youself, you thus change the world.Change of venue.Perspective.It has been 15 years since high school.Sometimes it feels like that was ages ago and other times it feels like it was just yesterday I walked into those halls,and across that stage to get my diploma.My nephew turned 16 this past July,it seems like it was just yesterday my sister was giving birth to him,and now he is 16,getting his driver's liscence and is 6"1.In the Bible it says that our time is not God's.He created it.And He is ifinitely more patient than we are.Like children to biological parents, it seems like forever when we want something,but once it happens we forget the waiting becuase it is that much sweeter when we do recieve it.We are HIS children.And at times feel like I am not progressing, but have to see where I been.Not like Lot's wife.Much like my name sake, my sins, wrongs are always before me.I can not do it by myself.When will I be humble and let HIM do it?Feel like the Pharasees and Saducess ...have a knowledge of Scripture but not getting the nuences,spirit behind the Word.

To be or not to be...

My cousin Jaimie.I do not hate her, I guess it is just our personalities.She is so loud,immature and in your face with malicious intent.We do not speak to each other, sort of quiet civilness.I just can not stand her.I do not wish her harm, just I feel guilty at times for not "trying harder", like saying hi.And think of the past with her.She has made mistakes as well as we all have.The guys she goes for.She deserves better, she does not go after men but boys.I do not know the guy she is dating but will keep an open mind.As for the personality thing, she just rubs me the wrong way and I do her, guess that is why try to keep distance and out of her way without inconveniencing myself.I geuss it is just the loudness of her mouth.When she is around, you def know it.No matter how irritating she is to me,she is still a person with feelings and thoughts.It takes different strokes, different folks, to rule the world.Everybody's got a special kind of story.

Holidays & Birthdays for me

Though I am not a Jehovah's Witness anymore but from what I have learned,and from personal thoughts and feelings on the subject, my viewpoint on the subject of holidays and birthdays are good traditions for others to celebrate but for me is why think of me and give me a gift and or card on that particular day?What happened to the other 364 days of the year?Why could you not send me a card or gift on any of those days?I feel if you do send me a gift,card or wish me the best it shows lack of thought and originality.Each day is a blessing,and each person is a blessing in your life.So instead of just one day, celebrate each day,life in general with those you cherish.

After all tomorrow a new day...

Jerry Springer: You know, what have we learned here today? Perhaps it's that no one can take your mojo. You can look around all you want, but what you're really trying to find is on the inside. Take care of yourself, and each other. -- Austin Powers : The Spy Who Shagged Me.
Your mojo, your "ness", you seven layers of smoke.That moment of clearity,when all is right in the universe, when you meet yourself and say "Hey dude!!Long time ,no see.I missed you so much.Reunited and it feels so goooood".No one can take away what is inside you,if they do it is by your permission.The price is to high, the price is wrong bitch!Once you allow it to be taken you loose a bit of yourself then one day you are lost to death itself within your heart.As there still breath across your lips,a heart beating within your chest there is always hope.Faith,hope, and love.These three remain but the greatest of these is love.Love for yourself, respect of self.Four walls and a roof cannot contain the spirit.Environment or nurturing?Age old arguement.To be or not to be.Be yourself, be true to thyself.Win or loose.Can not ever go wrong if you be yourself and handle your business.Listen to your innerself, you know what needs to be done, what ou dream of.

Reflective - Choices

"Bob Sweeney: There was a moment, when I used to blame everything and everyone for all the pain and suffering and vile things that happened to me, that I saw happen to my people. Used to blame everybody. Blamed white people, blamed society, blamed God. I didn't get no answers 'cause I was asking the wrong questions. You have to ask the right questions. Derek Vinyard: Like what? Bob Sweeney: Has anything you've done made your life better?" -- American History X
We all have a choice, even when we are down for what seems, for the count, and for an eternity. You can blame your parents for the way their words, or actions, shaped your behavior while young. You can blame that kid who called you "baby talk" for not being able to communicate effectively. You can blame others for this or that, but what it comes down to is - What have you done TODAY to accept responcibility?What have YOU done to change YOUR life?The past is the past. A graveyard of memories.True there are good one as well as the bad.When strolling down memory lane have to accept both, same coin.True, what got you here is back there but should be facing forward.Otherwise you might miss something extra -ordinary and you are back where you are at, wishing for "should've, could've and would've".Choose to be PRO-active to where you want to go,to be.Or to be reactive to where you been.